The other day I ran across the following blog: and this is a portion of what he had to say.
Heart on my (Gastric) Sleeve
Obesity is never JUST a food issue. It’s the manifestation of a vice – a bondage – an addiction, Obesity is never JUST a food issue. It’s the manifestation of a vice – a bondage – an addiction. When you see someone on the streets stumbling and slurring with a wine bottle in hand, their behavior and outer appearance is a manifestation of their condition. Their pain and torment caused them to take that drink and get to where they are today. It’s no different with obesity. What you see on the outside of me, was a feeble attempt to apply salve to my wounds in the form of food. Just because it wasn’t a bottle to my lips, or some powder snorted in my nose, or a needle in my vein – doesn’t make it any less harmful or any less deadly.
HMMMM.. after mulling this around in my head for several days.............What issues am I dealing with, or have I dealt with that caused me to turn to food as my comfort? And why turn to food? Why didnt I turn to excersize? Why did I harm myself instead of help myself? By hurting myself I hurt my family. I provided by choices for them, because thats what I wanted! This weight loss journey is so much more than 'just weight loss'.
Right now, Its easy for me to drag my lazy butt off the couch and take a walk. BUT, so hard for me to reach deep down in my innards and discover/deal with the real truth. The real feelings, the true problems. Ive buried them deep inside and want them to stay there!! If they come out, Im afraid Ill eat again. Im afraid of doing more damage to me and my family by offering poor food choices.
This is a road that needs to be traveled. Am I ready?